media journal/log!

Log 7.5.22
here's another one (hit show gifs)

A smiling Fox Mulder, overlayed with red, 'burning' text reading 'AUTISM'.

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Log 6.5.22
i've been thinking a lot about the x-files, but i haven't had the chance to watch it since i last mentioned it. this seems like the most fitting page for this image i made, though :)

Log 4.5.22
a few nights ago i watched 5x04 of the x-files - detour. already it's one of my favourite episodes. not to be one of them fandom 𝕓itches but MULDER AND SCULLY. THEY ARE IN LOVE. im 𝕗ucking obsessed with these little people. in case you weren't aware. not to mention MOTHMAN??? HELLO?????? the episode just hit the exact right note for me in terms of spooky vs fun. and everyone was ok in the end! except for the surveyors. r.i.p. them i guess. anyways this episode is up there with Fire, Sygyzy and War of the Coprophages for comfort episodes. it's so good ill definitely be rewatching it <33

Log 25.4.22
a couple days ago i slept over at a friend's house, theoretically for a study day but we realised pretty quickly it wasn't going to work out like that. instead we watched what we do in the shadows together! both the original movie and the first two seasons of the show. i'd seen the full show but not the movie, and they'd seen the movie but not the show, so it worked out nicely :3 i'd honestly forgotten how much i used to love wwdits - it's SO good, i highly recommend it. cw for a lot of sexual humour though lmao.

it seems that a lot of people have been on a taika waititi kick lately, myself and aforementioned friend included. i didn't realise that he actually plays viago, the main character of the wwdits movie! if you don't want to dedicate all that time to a show, i recommend you at least watch the movie. it really captures the feeling of "some guys 𝕗ucking around with a camera" and has a surprisingly wholesome ending!

apart from wwdits, though, i haven't read or watched anything. i mean, ive been relistening to some old tma episodes to go to sleep, but since i'm asleep for most of it... kind of feels like it doesn't count. school goes back soon as well which means i'll have even less time rip. oh well, it is what it is.

Log 16.4.22
hey folks! just dropping in to note that i rewatched OFMD in its entirely (and started work on a fanpage), and reread The Disasters! The Disasters (M.K. England, 2018) is a book abt a small group of people who are trying to save the galaxy. kind of the standard scifi setup. i HIGHLY recommend it, though - it's very readable, not too long, with wonderful characters. it's not a book with a whole heap of depth, mind you - it sets out to be a Fun Sci-Fi Adventure and it accomplishes that well. i also rlly like how diverse the cast is - all of the main characters are some combination of queer (with a trans character!!! they're not just cis gays!!!!), neurodivergent, or POC. two of the characters (incl the protagonist) are also muslim! it didn't feel like forced diversity, either, which was incredibly refreshing. just people being people :)

i actually got to meet M.K today!!!! they joined my book club via zoom, which was VERY exciting for me. the disasters has been one of my favourite books for a few years now! it was so cool to meet them, and they actually fit very well into our little book club group which was lovely!

Log 11.4.22
hello!! it's been a little while since i've updated here. (a little over a week, you may notice.) it's been exam week at school, so less time to enjoy things and even less time to write about them. but holidays now!! and i get to talk about my New Favourite Subject: the gay pirate show <333

the show i'm talking about is called "Our Flag Means Death", by David Jenkins and Taika Waititi. if you like:
- pirates
- romcoms
- pirate romcoms
- taika waititi content
- queer content
- taika waititi starring alongside rhys darby in queer pirate romcoms
- trans characters played by trans actors
- trans characters played by trans actors being badass
- characters with childhood trauma
- clearly neurodivergent characters
- clearly trans and neurodivergent characters outwitting the british
- interesting costume design
- shows that you can read rlly far into
- shows you don't have to read rlly far into if you don't want to
- shows that make autistic people (me) cry facedown on the floor for half an hour
- did i mention that taika plays blackbeard
- queer poc disabled blackbeard played by taika waititi
- genuinely what more could you possibly ask for guys
- pirates who are incompetent
- pirates who are scarily competent but incompetent when it's comedic
- actors who don't suffer from hollywood same face syndrome
- shows with an actually genuinely diverse cast of people
... then you'll enjoy OFMD!
i feel like i lost my train of thought there a little.

genuinely though. this show has overtaken the magnus archives (14+ month long special interest), the x files, AND this website in my brain. it's a celebration of queer masculinity in many different forms. you know how sometimes, especially in fandom spaces, the difference between "media about x" and "media that has x" isn't really acknowledged? OFMD is one hundred percent, completely, unapologetically a show about being queer. i've never felt so completely recognised and understood. from jim, a nonbinary character played by a nonbinary actor, to stede, a man who's lived his entire life being bullied and mocked for his visible differences and inability to adhere to typical social gender roles, to ed, a man who's built up the perfect masculine persona of blackbeard in order to get anyone to take him seriously. this is not even mentioning lucius, oluwande, frenchie, or the rest of the crew.

it's available on binge or hbo max if you already have those platforms, and on a whole bunch of other sites if you don't. it's only ten episodes long, with one season so far - definitely worth your time. please. i'm begging you. watch this show. i'm sure you've heard about it already but juuuuust on the off chance you haven't watched it. it's s o f u c k i n g g o o d.

other things i've looked at during this time:
Girls Against God, by Jenny Hval. queer feminist surrealist norweigan occult horror. this book has completely indented itself upon my psyche. holy shiiiiiiit. it is fairly dark in parts, and also generally has some nsfw themes if that's not your thing, but HIGHLY recommended. no other literature has described the experience of growing up queer in a sheltered conservative christian home as accurately. and the sections about what it calls the "cosmic internet"? IMPECCABLE. i borrowed this copy from a friend but i'm ordering my own copy asap so i can attack it with a highlighter and pencil. sososososo important to me.
The Magnus Archives, by Jonathan Sims and Alexander J Newall. obviously i've loved tma for a long time now but i've been relistening each night to fall asleep, and i'd forgotten how extraordinarily wonderful and spooky Jonny's writing and acting is. if you've never listened to tma i encourage you to check it out! (i also encourage you to avoid the fandom as long as you can, but hey, i'm not your parent.)
Cloud Gardens, by Noio. a beautiful and restful game. you get to turn dystopian scenes into plant covered gardens. what's not to love?A screenshot from Cloud Gardens, displaying low-poly suitcases, garden chairs, street-signs and a car, overgrown with plants.
The Silt Verses, by Eskew Productions. i've only really properly listened to the first episode, but I can see why a lot of tma fans like it. it's like if someone took all the messy, dark, blurred sections of tma, and expanded them into something fascinatingly new. so far it seems a bit darker than tma in tone, which i'm really enjoying. some of the mixing levels though are a little frustrating, since i startle easily and can't have it loud, but have too many audio processing problems to have it quiet - but then again i'm only on the first episode, it could very well improve as i go along.
Wooden Overcoats, by Andy Goddard and John Wakefield. apparently there's a whole new season out and I didn't notice! i was listening to it today and work and it is, as always, delightful. if you haven't heard it, it's a morbid comedy podcast about two clearly autistic siblings - twins, in fact - who run a funeral home... except, they aren't very good at it. (it also has several queer characters, which is a lovely bonus!) i binged the whole thing a while ago, so i'm excited to listen through their fourth and final season.
The Penguin Henry Lawson Short Stories, a collection of Henry Lawson's works. this one was for school, but i'm mentioning it here simply to request that you do not read it. it's a good insight into a veeeeery specific perspective of a very specific time period - which is to say, it's horribly racist and misogynistic. it was deeply frustrating to read through and then write an essay on, but i coped ✌ (mostly).
The X-Files, by Chris Carter. I finished s4 and am a few episodes into s5!!! and let me tell you, i LOST IT when scully said mulder died. i mean, i knew logically there were still like six seasons to go? but i was still DEEPLY upset. and then the cigarette smoking man died just two episodes later!! like!!! well f uCK!!
anyways, whoops, this was a long update. i guess i read/watched/listened to more than i thought i did. talk to you guys later :3

Log 2.4.22
hey guys! just watched 4x21 of the x files and uh




updating my theory wall rn

Log 30.3.22
Although I was debating whether to write about it here, I (re)watched The Lego Movie this weekend - it was playing for the younger kids and I ended up watching it. I really wasn't expecting it to be as good as it was. The animation is actually quite clever, and the narrative genuinely wasn't half bad. I appreciated how it took itself seriously, not continuously stopping to make fun of itself and its audience. (I also appreciated how the Big Bad was Literally Just Capitalism. No metaphor just straight up "evil President Business".)

I think one of the things I hate the most about recent kids movies is their tendency to undermine themselves. "We don't aaaaactually believe in the redeptive power of love. We're too mature for that, wink wink." (This is an MCU and Disney Princess vaguepost.) Even The Lego Movie 2: The Second Part falls prey to this:

Everything's not awesome
Things can't be awesome all of the time
It's an unrealistic expectation
But that doesn't mean we shouldn't try
To make everything awesome
In a less idealistic kind of way
We should maybe aim for not bad
'Cause not bad, well that would be real great

So maybe I am a little bit critical, but what the π”½π•Œβ„‚π•‚ is that. @Warner Animations answer me.

Anyways. Filmmakers stop undercutting your own messages and start using actual humour again, cowards. Give me visibly-hanging-by-an-animated-string Ghost Wizard instead of Oh Haha Isn't Love So Stupid,,,,,, please,,,,,,,,,,,,

Go rewatch (or watch) The Lego Movie. Apart from Chris Pratt, it slaps.

Log 21.3.22
The first game I'm playing is Ynglet. HOLY π•Šβ„π•€π•‹. This game is BEAUTIFUL.

Ynglet gameplay photo 1Ynglet gameplay photo 2

Ynglet is a "floating non-platformer". The vibe of a platform game, but without any actual platforms as such. A lot of the appeal is in the dynamic soundtrack and the visuals, but I also really appreciate the customisable difficulty settings. Accessibility is important, and also sometimes? you just wanna play a fun game with nice pictures. No effort required. There's a photosensitive-friendly setting too!

Ynglet gameplay photo 3 - difficulty settings

I'm only a few levels and about 45 minutes in so far, but I'm in love already. It's not addictive, either - I find a lot of really "addictive game-play" games to be really unpleasant because I genuinely can't tear myself away, even if I have other things I want or need to do. But Ynglet I played, enjoyed, and stopped when I wanted to. It's just... nice, you know?

Ynglet gameplay photo 4

Playing this as someone who knows,,,, a little? about digital music stuff, it was absolutely fascinating to see how they integrated the soundtrack into the gameplay. It felt really satisfying, and also actually sounded good! All of which to say: feeling VERY positive about this bundle. It might finally get me into video games again!

Log 20.3.22
A few days ago I purchased's bundle for ukraine, and although I haven't had the chance to properly look through any of the content, what I've seen looks pretty cool. I'm particularly excited for some of the TTRPGs I can see in there, but there are a lot of video games - a lot of platformers, I've noticed - that I'm really looking forward to playing as well.